I want to be free

Today is one of those days i don't know what i want in life...
cant decide weather to take one path over the other, Not stressed, not depressed just bored of the same old shit... Routine kills the fun in life... yet i cant walk away from it because im so use to it. Today everything disgusts me.. even if yesterday i enjoyed it.. the time of the month nope, just my wild side screaming to be liberated.

Your still in my mind

No matter how hard i try, you are always in my head! In my Head!! Time has frozen and my heart has stoped beating since you left. You said you would never hurt me, and look at me now. But if you come back ill run away with you with out a doubt. In my dreams i see you all over me, in my head.. you and me.. are what we were meant to be.

wasting my days away in a unknown agony...

I been soo stressed out, so depress and just in my own Lil world. I stop talking to my friends and just ignore their calls.. i guess there goes a few friendships down the drain.. Its not really my decision to feel this way.. it just happens its part of me and what i am, being alone to long kills me.. I'm a people person but i lost the rhythm. But today i saw a quote that says some thing like this:

Every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

and it just hit me in my head, i wasn't like this... i use to be the happy eye of the day! so I'm going to try my best to be what i once was.. that outstanding girl yea that one every one hated for being loud and open minded and spoke what ever was on her mind.. That girl who got in fights every 3 days for speaking out with out thinking twice what she had to say, now I'm to afraid to say whats on my mind... I'm to afraid of what might happen, and who might get hurt.. :( but I'm going to try my best, promise!

Eyeshadow Palettes and My Make-up addiction

As all girls I love make-up!! I am addicted to make-up.. i sleep with make-up, I go to the pools with make-up! I just hate to be having to look in my make up box for the color i want, and have to be comparing back and forth witch one to choose.. so two weeks ago i got the 88 Palette Eyeshadow, and i loved it.. It is not Mac brand but the Pigmentation is till great and has a variety of colors to choose from.. So today i go to ebay and see two more Palettes i want to buy, the brand is Mac but you can also get The generic that has the same colors (Manly) theres the 120 Palette Eyeshadows and the 180 Palette Eyeshadows. They 120palette one is 19.99 free shipping and the 180 is 28$ plus 19.99 shipping. Yea might sound like alot but its soo worth it.. Here are the pictures of both Palattes. Tell Me what you think??

The 120 Palette
The 180 Palette

Sleepless Nights

Since my life came across that special person i haven't been able to sleep one whole night. The memories of  the nights on the phone and not wanting to hang up, i wish it was still like that. I can't sleep waiting for his call, this insomnia that hurts so much, that keeps me distant from real life, just waiting for him to pop. He no longer calls every night like he used to, and there's days i know nothing of him but i still stay awake all night just in case.. His voice comforted me, made me feel so special and loved, never got to see him and probably never will. We have been so close yet so far, we been face to face but our faces don't recall. I know I'm just another girl in his phone list, and i know i shouldn't feel this, I know this is little kids talk but how do i explain this to my heart? I cheek my phone every minute just to see he has not called... days pass and my heart drowns in agony and dis-pare.. One random text of him and i forget the pain, just to see his name blink in my screen. This crazy roller coaster is driving me insane. People keep asking whats wrong with me? and  the moods on my space says it all I'm going Loco for him and I? just another girl on his contact list. :(

New addiction to Face book?

So a couple weeks ago while discussing the alternatives the HKJ would have to re-establish our Network a big majority of girls said a BIG no to face book. I had never been attracted to it, and it seemed to complicated...never did i thought i would open an account. A week ago i decided to give it a try (just in case HKJ does have to move) The setting up was easy! so easy to find people you know unlike my space. Like the Like Buttons and the quickness of the system, the only thing that bummed me down was the fact that i wouldn't customized my profile until a friend showed me a plug in u use!! I have to admit i still dont get it 100% but just to be on the games wott wott!! so much fun!

Some games i enjoy: Happy Island, Ponzi Inc and Social city
Whays your favorite things on facebook? What games do you spend hours playing??
Well i hope i don't get to addicted to much is not good!! Also i wanted to thank all my HKJ for adding me  to their friends list and leaving comments and sending invites for games.. you have made my face book discovery a lot funner... Soon ill be a face book Expert like the rest of you girls and maybe ill get to say GOODBYE to My-space, since is becoming to much drama.. Well enough for today.. haven't sleep all night.. was up playing PONZI!!!